Joe -:- Atlanta Training -- You Won't Believe It -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 14:36:54 (EST)

__ Vicki -:- Encore -:- Fri, Jan 11, 2002 at 10:27:12 (EST)

__ Kelly -:- Re: Atlanta Training -- You Won't Believe It -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 18:41:42 (EST)

__ __ cq -:- Re: Atlanta Training -:- Fri, Jan 11, 2002 at 11:56:25 (EST)

__ __ Pullaver -:- He's Got the Power -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 23:42:37 (EST)

__ michael donner -:- Re: Atlanta Training -- You Won't Believe It -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 11:58:39 (EST)

__ __ JS -:- You got it Donner!...nt -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 16:46:19 (EST)

__ __ PatC -:- In a nutshell, Donner -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 13:57:51 (EST)

__ __ __ wolfie -:- bhakti yoga............ -:- Fri, Jan 11, 2002 at 07:43:13 (EST)

__ __ Joe -:- Excellent Michael -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 12:13:33 (EST)

__ wolfie -:- Re: Atlanta Training -- You Won't Believe It -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 11:29:07 (EST)

__ __ Joe -:- The problem in a nutshell -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 11:36:10 (EST)

__ __ __ wolfie -:- without EPO ......... -:- Fri, Jan 11, 2002 at 07:28:32 (EST)

__ Sulla -:- I believe and I wish -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 09:50:48 (EST)

__ __ Disculta -:- To Sulla -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 11:02:16 (EST)

__ __ __ Sulla -:- You helped me -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 13:28:04 (EST)

__ __ __ __ Disculta -:- Sulla, hablas espanol? -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 18:25:36 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ Sulla -:- Re: Si chica, lo hablo y tambien lo escribo. -:- Fri, Jan 11, 2002 at 10:50:11 (EST)

__ Jean-Michel -:- This thread *** Best of Forum *** -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 03:10:40 (EST)

__ Francesca :~) -:- Deep hole! YESSS! -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 19:19:50 (EST)

__ __ Joe -:- Actual quote -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 19:32:43 (EST)

__ __ __ Mercedes -:- Re: Actual quote -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 14:37:14 (EST)

__ Disculta -:- North Bay Video Festival this Sunday -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 18:23:50 (EST)

__ __ Mercedes -:- Re: North Bay Video Festival this Sunday -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 14:38:47 (EST)

__ __ Tonette -:- I hope you guys have a strong stomach! -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 03:17:45 (EST)

__ Pullaver -:- Pathological Liar -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 16:17:46 (EST)

__ Cynthia -:- Re: Atlanta Training -- You Won't Believe It -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 15:53:09 (EST)

__ __ Mercedes -:- Re: Atlanta Training -- You Won't Believe It -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 14:43:44 (EST)

__ PatC -:- Re: Atlanta Training -- You Won't Believe It -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 15:39:55 (EST)

__ __ Chris -:- Tidbits on blind idolization... -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 11:48:16 (EST)

__ __ __ PatC -:- Re: Tidbits on blind idolization... -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 14:22:43 (EST)

__ __ Tonette -:- I wonder. -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 01:55:17 (EST)

__ __ __ Deborah -:- Yes, I thought the same thing -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 18:16:58 (EST)

__ __ __ __ Tonette -:- Great minds think alike, eh Deborah? nt -:- Sat, Jan 12, 2002 at 09:54:56 (EST)

__ __ __ PatC -:- ROFLMAO, Tonette. [nt] -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 04:15:45 (EST)

__ __ Deborah -:- Unbelievable! -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 18:38:11 (EST)

__ __ __ PatC -:- if you and Jim want to see it... -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 19:10:56 (EST)

__ __ __ __ Jim -:- Yes, thanks, Pat -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 20:59:06 (EST)

__ __ __ __ __ PatC -:- Will do, Jim. [nt] -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 04:16:40 (EST)

__ __ __ Zelda -:- Simultaneous Video E -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 18:54:17 (EST)

__ __ __ __ Cynthia -:- Disculta, I have to say... -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 22:32:46 (EST)

__ __ Joe -:- Yes, so strange -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 16:25:21 (EST)

__ __ __ bill -:- Re: Yes, so strange -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 16:48:12 (EST)

__ __ __ PatC -:- Rawat knows propagation is dead in west -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 16:44:43 (EST)

__ __ __ __ Cynthia -:- Re: Rawat knows propagation is dead in west -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 17:52:19 (EST)

__ __ PatC -:- PS Kelly did a transcript of it -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 15:44:37 (EST)

__ __ __ bill -:- Transcript is in post just below. [nt] -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 19:32:43 (EST)

__ __ __ Pat W -:- Re: PS Kelly did a transcript of it -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 19:15:08 (EST)

__ __ __ __ PatC -:- Oy vey! Thanks Pat W. -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 19:25:18 (EST)

__ Brian Smith -:- Wow, What a piece of work -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 15:36:54 (EST)

__ Jim -:- Makes a mockery of Roupell, no? -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 15:13:57 (EST)

__ __ Joe -:- True/Maharaji's Dilemma and the poor premies -:- Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 11:29:15 (EST)

__ __ jonathan -:- Re: Makes a mockery of Roupell, no? -:- Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 19:28:37 (EST)

Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 14:36:54 (EST)
From: Joe
Email: kevjo@mindspring
To: All
Subject: Atlanta Training -- You Won't Believe It
Message:

Pat and Chuck gave me a copy of the Atlanta 'training video' in which Maharaji explains how to do propagation. It is truly amazing.

Rest assured, there is no chance propagation is going to happen. Maharaji is clearly out of it. It is about the most confused thing I have ever seen. Pat, sorry for ever doubting you, I can see why this would send you over the edge into ex-land.

I will comment more on this, but I really think everyone should see this video. Maharaji clearly does not have a clue. I mean, in his ranting 'satang' videos, it can be kind of hidden, but in these videos M is actually trying to make points, I mean actual, supposedly logical 'training' items. You really get to see just how incoherent, arrogant, and out of touch, he really is.

Maharaji says propagation is going into the toilet. Well, he doesn't actually say that, but he says that if something drastic doesn't happen, I guess it's over. He does this hand motion 'going-down-the-drain' and he is quite pissed about that, and, really, it's all the premies' fault you know, the premies and the Mahatmas. They really fucked things up, and he is still trying to clean it up.

You get the idea of how lame this 'training' is from the first 'point' Maharaji teaches the premies. That is, that knowledge isn't for people who aren't interested. I thought that was profound, as if the premies were going to kidnap people and force them to receive knowledge against their will. Maharaji says this point with a lot of emphasis, and the premies act like village idiots, like that never occurred to them before.

Anyhow, I will comment more later, and I think we should view this on Sunday evening in the North Bay video festival at Disculta's.

I want to mention the audience of premies, which I think is partly reflective of Maharaji's problem.

The 'training' was in a hotel banquet room in an Atlanta hotel in July 2000. Maharaji stands on a dias at the front, and the premies are set way, way back from him, up against the walls of the ballroom, which is kind of strange. Maharaji waddles around on the dias making 'points.'

Anyhow, the audience is entirely lily white. You might think that in a city like Atlanta, which has a majority African-American population, there would be at least ONE person of color there, but no, not one, zero.

Second, the audience is also all middle aged or older. I saw not one younger person in the audience, which was 'panned' many times. Everyone was dressed very conservatively, but modestly, like they were going to church. It looked like a room full of aging baby-boomer Republicans from Orange County. More women than men, maybe 60% women and maybe 50-60 people total.

I did recognize a couple of people I knew, although I hadn't seen them in 15 years. I guess these are the 'church ladies' right?

I am almost speechless after seeing this video. I can tell you one thing..this cult is going nowhere propagation-wise. The main problem is this: Maharaji says that premies should tell others about the 'possibility' of knowledge and it should be a pleasurable experience, and then he absolutely scares the shit out of them about what might happen if they say the wrong thing. That's the first problem.

Second, the problem is Maharaji. First, he says you don't have to 'sell' Maharaji, but then he says that you probably are not describing Maharaji as 'great' as he really is. Huh? He says that EVERYTHING is due to the Master. If the Master doesn't want people to receive knowledge they don't and he also says the experience is due to the Master. (really, it's that blatant). BUT he implies that the premies shouldn't tell people that, sort of. He gives no explantion as to how Maharaji should be described, explained, or what purpose he serves. But then, as I said, he said most people probably don't speak well enough of him. It's really confused.

He says there are terrible problems from the 70s which were due to the Mahatmas and their concepts, and that's why he had to tell people at some point to not tell anyone about knowlege as a 'stop gap.' He says he is now "revisiting" that and thinks it's time to tell people about knowledge again. The examples of what the Mahatmas said were that Maharaji 'spoke 48 languages" and that he "walked on water."

Again, proof by absurd anecdote, and for the record, I never heard anyone, including any Mahatma attribute those abilities to Maharaji. He conveniently does not mention his claiming to be the incarnation of God like Jesus and Krishna, or his dancing around with Krishna outfits on until 1983. He also doesn't mention his claiming to be saving people by his 'grace' that we should 'pray' to him and all the rest he preached for many, many years. These things apparently weren't the problem, it was all the Mahatmas, and the premies.

He does, however, consider it pathetic that 'we' are, to this day, having to defend against those things, and show that they are not true. (Obvious reference to EPO and ex-premies reminding the world of M's past, but unclear how he has ever demonstrated lack of accuracy), which, he reiterates, was all due to the Mahatmas and the premies who were just 'wild' in the way they talked about him, back then. This, he says, has put him into a "deep hole" and he has never recovered from. He seems completely oblivious to how "coming clean" and being honest might help him in that regard. Instead, he blames the Mahatmas and the premies.

This Maharaji guy is a fucking piece of work, let me tell you.

Hey guys, I thought it was bad, but it's much, much worse than even I thought.

Pat and Chuck, I now understand the reaction you had. Amazing.

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Date: Fri, Jan 11, 2002 at 10:27:12 (EST)
From: Vicki
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: Encore
Message:

Chris, below, touched on the fact that this video is the one that we commonly refer to as The Michael Nouri video used in the Kit promotional presentation. It was sent out to the communities under the stictest of conditions, because they said it could do damage in the wrong hands.

Nouri appears during the Atlanta video, via breaks, explaining what Maharaji just said. Bullet point notes appear of what Maharaji said, with Nouri reading them.

It's like he was trying to convince us this was such a brilliant presentation we were unable to digest it without help!

A video snippet of Maharaji dropping in at some LA event, dribbling more of the same, appears near the end.

This Atlanta video version was the last drip for many a premie, I do believe.

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 18:41:42 (EST)
From: Kelly
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: Re: Atlanta Training -- You Won't Believe It
Message:

I do believe it, I have seen it, but I know what you mean, it is 'unbelievable'.
This was my next to last 'drip'.The last being reading Michael Dettmers posts about x-rating. I have a recording of it from which I transcribed two passages and posted them on the forum. I see that Patrick W has dragged them out of the archives and posted them below, but they have aquired a lot of funny symbols. They are easier to read on EPO in the 'best of forum section', second one down, entitled 'Miragey's recent diatribe'
I first watched this with some premie friends who told me that it was wonderful 'he makes it all so clear'. Well he certainly made it clear to me! How anyone can watch this and not see right through him is beyond me. His arrogance is extraordinary.
'Knowledge, and all things associated with it, are compliments of the Master.The Master doesn’t want knowledge sessions to happen, Guess what? They’re not happening.The Master changes the rules, creates the rules, disposes of these rules, as the Master wishes.'

So this is where he admits that he changes the rules, just as he pleases, but he is the master, so that's ok! Somewhere in this training he talks about not wanting people to come along with their own ideas, that he needs people who will just do as they're told. ' He often says things like, it used to really worry me. 'I was only following orders!'
But most of all, what I hated about that training was the way he was talking to his followers, people who had devoted their lives to him...talking down to them in the most supercilious and condescending fashion, treating them like imbeciles. It was disgusting.
I'm hanging on to this video,just in case I ever need reminding how vile he can be.
I can just imagine how you felt when you saw it Joe.

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Date: Fri, Jan 11, 2002 at 11:56:25 (EST)
From: cq
Email: planetqwerty@postmaster.co.uk
To: Kelly
Subject: Re: Atlanta Training
Message:

Hi Kelly,

Long time no see. Hope all's well with you and yours.

Re. the training video - Joe was going to lend me his copy, but it's the American NTSC version. Any chance of popping your UK version (or a copy of it) in the post? - I'll reimburse any expenses. And with a bit of luck, or rather time, I could transcribe the juicy bits and post them here. What do you think? Good idea?

My email address is above if you think so.

tara for now.

Chris

PS - are we Latvian niting again this year?

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 23:42:37 (EST)
From: Pullaver
Email: None
To: Kelly
Subject: He's Got the Power
Message:

The Master doesn’t want knowledge sessions to happen, Guess what? They’re not happening So he finally admits that he is behind the death of propogation - he's just so darn masterful.

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 11:58:39 (EST)
From: michael donner
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: Re: Atlanta Training -- You Won't Believe It
Message:

hi joe, i remember some discussion of this training when i first started posting. you hit on the point of m blaming others for the failure of propagation. this has always been an interesting point from which to enter into the process the dynamic of this particular guru.
here we have a person supposedly so powerful slidding into a victim mode of thinking and talking...blaming others for the failure of the mission he accepted from his father to 'spread knowledge to the whole world'. here is a person who i witnessed many many times quite willing to call mahatmas to denver or malibu or miami and scream at them about something that was displeasing him. a guy who called mahatmas and initiations together when ever he pleased, would have them sit for days and days and never show up to speak to them...to set them straight about the work he wanted them to do, nor explain to them how to do it. he had so many chances to tell the mahatmas what he wanted them to say and not to say...who would sit there on the stage and specifically want a particular instructor or mahatma to speak before he did..knowing full well they would say things like 'guru is greater then god, because gure reveals god'...or what ever rubbish, he knew full well what they would say and not do anything about it...only to years (or months or whatever) to blame them for his troubles

here is a guy who is supposed to be so special, so talented, so wise and could never exert the appropriate leadership to create any structure to help him do his 'work', fullfil his purpose. always someone else's fault. there have been many phases of revisionism..and then often phases of reversion back to blantant devotion as well...the impact always the message that 'one cannot do anything right with out the master' how 'much you need the master in your life' etc. etc.

so, in fact, he has been effective at continueously creating these broad strokes of 'lila'..the play between the master and the true devotee. this is the path of bakti yoga...devotional yoga that m has been on since the beginning and the path that current premies seem to want to be on themselves. surely the recent series of 'appreciation/audience' programs has demonstrated that once again.

it is not surprising that the aging group of followers (certainly generally speaking) want most to just be with him..just of touch his feet and sing his praises. all the rest is either cover and public projection to give those followers some way to justify to their own psycics that that is not what it is about really..not completely. especially for the western premies who need to feel like they are doing some good in the world. and that by following m, they are helping him spread this good news to a world that needs it.

in india, etc. there is no pretense like this...just pure bakti yoga..master and devotee.

so, the process of m getting angry and premies taking it is all part of the game that they all willingly participate in. a game that reinforces the relationship of the master and the devotee...reinforces the relationship of power and subservience that is implicit in that dynamic

no point in expecting more then this...i am not surprised (and i doubt many readers here are really surprised...nor really disappointed any more) that it is what it has always been. the show, the obvious disparagy between messages is just m's way to seperate the wheat from the chaff. and premies want to feel like they are the wheat. that they see through the games and still can surrender to the feet of the lord.

m's responsibility of/for the ashram is the same. how many times did he call special ashram meeting during or just after major programs to give those folks (us folks) special attention and recognition for the further steps into surrender that were being taken. he knew full well that he was creating a dynamic within the movement of his...to give a practicular group special attention only made others want to be there so they too could get that special attention. and what a mess that created...he created by that tactic. folks joining the ashram, saying what ever they had to, to be able to join a 'life long' committment many motivated only by the hope to have that 'special session' with m once or twice a year.

well...it goes on and on. its always been about devotion (and money of course) and it always will be.

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 16:46:19 (EST)
From: JS
Email: None
To: michael donner
Subject: You got it Donner!...nt
Message:

nt

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 13:57:51 (EST)
From: PatC
Email: None
To: michael donner
Subject: In a nutshell, Donner
Message:

You said: ''it is not surprising that the aging group of followers (certainly generally speaking) want most to just be with him..just of touch his feet and sing his praises. all the rest is either cover and public projection to give those followers some way to justify to their own psycics that that is not what it is about really..not completely. especially for the western premies who need to feel like they are doing some good in the world. and that by following m, they are helping him spread this good news to a world that needs it. in india, etc. there is no pretense like this...just pure bakti yoga..master and devotee.''

It seems to suit some westerners. One premie as much as gloated on LG the other day that it's great that we all walked away and now just the real devotees remain. Trouble is I see the die-hards have adopted amoral, passive, solipsistic and fatalistic Hinduism.

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Date: Fri, Jan 11, 2002 at 07:43:13 (EST)
From: wolfie
Email: None
To: PatC
Subject: bhakti yoga............
Message:

maybe is okay when the master at least would have the qualities of a dog.

wolfie wishing to have devotion for my existence

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 12:13:33 (EST)
From: Joe
Email: None
To: michael donner
Subject: Excellent Michael
Message:

Of course, what you are saying is, unfortunately absolutely correct and I was once in that place myself, and I am so grateful, I have so much 'gratitude' that I'm out of it.

I think one of the purposes of EPO and ex-premies is to at least let people know the truth, because the fact that bakti/devotion is the essence of Maharaji's trip, and the resulting continued humiliation and submission of the premies to whatever ignorant, cruel or insensitive thing he does, (including that Atlanta "training") is hidden from potential aspirants, and Maharaji is continually excused from taking any responsbility for anything.

Also, I think premies can be trapped in that whole morass and not realize that is what is happening. They are somehow able to convince themselves it is really not the case.

That is what is so infuriating about that video Passages. It is one big video rationalization/exculpation for Maharaji, by, basically, blaming his followers, using a bunch of his followers to engage in that process of blame and self-abuse.

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 11:29:07 (EST)
From: wolfie
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: Re: Atlanta Training -- You Won't Believe It
Message:

Hi,

I saw a part of this video at the programm in Mainz (Germany).My statment afterwards was so everybody could hear it standing next to me and my wife: 'Now he is gone crazy!!!!' There was no reaction from the ones who've heard my statment.

M's show on this video is one of the worst, I think he was drunk from a night before or so. It's unbelievable and we believed in a person like him. I thought a long time, he is the most integer person on this planent. Autsch!!!!!!!!!!!

I never thought I could be more ignorant than the folks who run for the 'great Fuehrer' here in Germany, I think I managed it.

The ones who still think this video is great and very instructive are completly brainwashed or without any substance. Sorry.

.............wolfie running as fast as he can!

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 11:36:10 (EST)
From: Joe
Email: None
To: wolfie
Subject: The problem in a nutshell
Message:

Good for you, Wolfie that you were able to see that. I don't know how many people in that hotel banquet room in Atlanta did, but I'm sure some did. I'm reprinting what I posted to Jim, down below, because it kind of summarizes my view of that video.

Maharaji specifically said in the training that if things don't change, he can pretty much forget propagation. And yet, it's clear he had no idea how to change anything. He kept talking about the 'new' way to propagate knowledge. Other than his use of the word 'possibility' which he repeated so many times, he must think the premies are brain-dead, there isn't anything there.

Then, he said, that not only did the premie have to tell the person about the 'possibility' of knowledge, being so deadly careful not to say the wrong thing, they also had to see that the person saw the right videos, received knowledge, and 'enjoyed' knowledge for the rest of their lives.

He puts all this responsbility on the premies, and at the same time, gives them ZERO credit for doing anything themselves, because it's ALL due to the 'Master,' scaring the shit out of them for possibily doing things wrong, blaming them (and the Mahatmas) for how screwed up things were in the past resulting in the current pathetic problems he has, and on and on. I wondered how ANYONE walking out of that room, would have any self-confidence to do ANYTHING in regard to propagation. One also wonders what the hell it is that Maharaji does, in regard to propagation, because he clearly puts the onus on the premies, and they are clearly in a no-win situation.

And of course, the result is, premies don't tell anybody about knowledge, because they haven't a clue how to, especially because they have no idea how to explain Maharaji.

Somebody, probably Valerio Pascotto, has convinced M that the way to get things going is by these strange 'trainings' and I think he has probably already abandoned them, as this was a year ago. We shall see what the 'next' NEW thing for propagation will be, and how long he can con the premies into thinking he actually knows what the hell he's doing.

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Date: Fri, Jan 11, 2002 at 07:28:32 (EST)
From: wolfie
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: without EPO .........
Message:

I would have not seen it so clear. I would have seen it, but I would have swalloed at least a little bit.

This whole M - story is a mess, hard to analize the different aspects.
In the moment I'm completly bored to talk about, maybe this is somekind of depression about my own involvment with this cult. I don't like to talk about it anymore because there is not much to say besides: ' it is disgusting '

a mess is a mess is a mess................ciao wolfie

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 09:50:48 (EST)
From: Sulla
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: I believe and I wish
Message:

Did he also blame mahatmas for last year darshans? Did he officially cancel darshans before those? As a premie I wished to have THAT again as most premies did and do. Why did M cancel public ones? Do someone know? Why I wanted to have it? Who I thought he was? Why is still not clear for me who I thought he was?? I wish I can understand everything, to already have all the pieces of the puzzle in my mind, for all this to finish. Or never started at all. I thought everything was OK, and here I am, crying again, with sadness and rage. Poor premies we were and they are, so innocent, without knowing anything. I wish I can have him here, in this room, and punch him in the head, I wish I could go to a big public event and be brave enough to confront him and tell him how much I hate him in this moment. Thanks I have the sweet voice of my little boy asking me for a towel, it's almost late for school, but I still have this heavy feeling in my heart. But it will go away and it's going to be OK again.

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 11:02:16 (EST)
From: Disculta
Email: None
To: Sulla
Subject: To Sulla
Message:

It WILL get better and it IS very confusing to leave MJ because it can feel as though you are having to reject parts of yourself. The parts that were innocent and idealistic and naive and open and loved MJ for who he said he was, and sometimes seemed to be.

It takes a bit of thinking through, but I think the trick is to realize that what we were seeing was just a reflection of our own radiant inner selves, and that the devotion and love we felt towards that was good, and we can keep it, just redirect it. Devotion to the self is good. It heals a lot of the wounds that being an unloved devotee can inflict.

All the feelings moving through are a good sign, I think, that you are moving fast from one organization of self to another. I've found it best to not resist the feelings and give them lots of space, at the same time as making sure that they don't get mixed up with any thoughts that are beating ME up.

Hope this helps. Glad you've got a little boy for some good ole human love.

Much love to you, Katie Darling

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 13:28:04 (EST)
From: Sulla
Email: None
To: Disculta
Subject: You helped me
Message:

Thanks Disculta for your words. They help me to remember and again understand why : ' for who he said he was, and sometimes seemed to be.' Some times it's difficult when a part inside, somewhere, is touched and starts to bleed, when you realized that something has being damage, and that moment of pain becomes more real than any reason.
I'm feeling sick today but it will pass. Enjoy that California video event, maybe one day we'll have one here in FL. Yes, I'm glad I have my children (3) , my husband and the possibility to share that human love with them and everybody else.

Much love to you also.

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 18:25:36 (EST)
From: Disculta
Email: None
To: Sulla
Subject: Sulla, hablas espanol?
Message:

Yo hablo espanol. Si alguna vez te sientes mal y quieres hablar por e-mail mi direccion es darlingwave@aol.com.

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Date: Fri, Jan 11, 2002 at 10:50:11 (EST)
From: Sulla
Email: None
To: Disculta
Subject: Re: Si chica, lo hablo y tambien lo escribo.
Message:

Thanks for your offer, I will. Do you Know some ex premies around Fl.? That would be nice to know.
Besos.

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 03:10:40 (EST)
From: Jean-Michel
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: This thread *** Best of Forum ***
Message:

IMO ..... Thank you all.

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 19:19:50 (EST)
From: Francesca :~)
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: Deep hole! YESSS!
Message:

Joe, this is great.

This, he says, has put him into a 'deep hole' and he has never recovered from.

This is wonderful news. I will throw him a few bananas if I ever find the zoo he's in.

--f

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 19:32:43 (EST)
From: Joe
Email: None
To: Francesca :~)
Subject: Actual quote
Message:

I was summarizing from memory, but thanks to Kelly, we have the exact quote:

...the bad news is that the concepts have really gotten us in a hole to this day, where we're still having to defend ourselves, which I find pathetic (he spits this out) having to defend ourselves and say.. No.. these things are not true.

What Kelly says about Ms arrogant, condescending attitude it very true. My question is, how can premies sit and be told they are idiots, too stupid to know how to express their own experience? He is just so insulting to them, and yet they seem to love it.

I did notice a couple of people "squirming" in the audience. One woman appeared about to leave a couple of times, but just kind of folded her arms and sat there. I think there are people who felt how weird it was, but most just looked blankly with smiles on their faces.

Did I ever look like that? God, I hope not, and if I did, I thank God I got out before portable video cameras, or I might be seen on tape!

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 14:37:14 (EST)
From: Mercedes
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: Re: Actual quote
Message:

My question is, how can premies sit and be told they are idiots, too stupid to know how to express their own experience? He is just so insulting to them, and yet they seem to love it.

I did notice a couple of people "squirming" in the audience. One woman appeared about to leave a couple of times, but just kind of folded her arms and sat there. I think there are people who felt how weird it was, but most just looked blankly with smiles on their faces.

Did I ever look like that? God, I hope not, and if I did, I thank God I got out before portable video cameras, or I might be seen on tape!


---

Hi Joe,
Excellent post from the beginning. I feel that these people still think as was already posted that the guy is god in a bod and also have no self esteem or self worth to stand up and say to m I don't agree with you and you are not being respectful of me. They think they are sinners, for lack of a better word, undeservling...Oh I could go on and on this makes me still so angry...
Thank you so very much I enjoy reading your posts.
Mercedes

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 18:23:50 (EST)
From: Disculta
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: North Bay Video Festival this Sunday
Message:

Gosh darn, I can't wait to see this! I haven't even SEEN him for 17 years except one old video I watched years ago, and a snippet of LOTU that I put in my birthday film last year. But I haven't seen the adult MJ at all.

Hey come one, come all, come to the North Bay Video Festival (San Francisco Bay) this Sunday eve chez moi. Any other takers? I can put you up if you want to pop down from, say, Seattle?!!!

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 14:38:47 (EST)
From: Mercedes
Email: None
To: Disculta
Subject: Re: North Bay Video Festival this Sunday
Message:

That is mighty tempting, I am not sure I can make it though.
Love,
Mercedes

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 03:17:45 (EST)
From: Tonette
Email: None
To: Disculta
Subject: I hope you guys have a strong stomach!
Message:

I wish I was on the West Coast, it would be fun to meet you all.

Now, I'm going to start worring if this becomes a regular thing and you guys get the sudden urge to purchase a satellite dish. Although it would be hilarious to watch a video of the ex's watching a video of Maharaji.

Enjoy youselves
Tonette

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 16:17:46 (EST)
From: Pullaver
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: Pathological Liar
Message:

I wonder if m has convinced himself that he had no part in the hindu dog and pony show he headed up in the west. Is it possible he has spun his deception and lies for so long that he actually believes it?

Talk about narcissitic and egomaniacal. Does he consider for one moment that his own lack of responsibility and care towards the welfare of his followers, his spin-doctoring revisionism and never-ending quest for funds in the west are the reasons propogation is dead?

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 15:53:09 (EST)
From: Cynthia
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: Re: Atlanta Training -- You Won't Believe It
Message:

Thanks for that review of the video.

The more I think about it, the more I believe mahaha is just stupid.

I don't think he wants propagation at all. I think he just wants money.

All he's ever done is complain and complain again. He can do no wrong, everything is always someone else's fault.

One of the biggest drips for me was that maharaji consistently revised how ''propagation'' would happen. From the beginning of my involvement in 1975, things were in flux. From the beginning of my involvement he justified every material thing he wanted by assigning it to propagation.

I do think he's addicted to adultation, but more addicted to things. What a piece of work is right. And he just can't see it.

Maharaji has the least self-knowledge of anyone I ever met. As I've said before, he lives in a box of mirrors, and can't see anything but himself.

Thanks again, Joe

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 14:43:44 (EST)
From: Mercedes
Email: None
To: Cynthia
Subject: Re: Atlanta Training -- You Won't Believe It
Message:

'I do think he's addicted to adultation, but more addicted to things. What a piece of work is
right. And he just can't see it.

Maharaji has the least self-knowledge of anyone I ever met. As I've said before, he lives in a
box of mirrors, and can't see anything but himself.'

You got it Cynthia, he is dysfunctional to the core, a complete addict, narcissistic idiot.
Mercedes

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 15:39:55 (EST)
From: PatC
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: Re: Atlanta Training -- You Won't Believe It
Message:

We were only able to watch about 15 minutes of it before looking at each other and saying, ''That's it. It's over. I'm out of here. Rawat is insane.''

A few months after coming onto the forum I wrote a description of it which is far from accurate but is a very subjective memory of the horrible effect it had on me. Here it is:

Propagation Seminar in Atlanta, 2000

Maharaji addresses an audience of about 80 to 100 people in a hotel ballroom. The Pewks are seated around the edges of three sides and Rev Rawat occupies the fourth side surrounded by an array of corporate CEO-type sales-hype toys: a white drawing board, desk with laptop PC, lectern etc.

He walks around all through the sermon with a felt-tip pen in his hand acting very dotcommy, with one hand in his pocket and (I kid you not) his tongue often in his cheek. He sticks his tongue in the left cheek pouch between his bottom teeth and bottom lip whenever he tells a joke or says something which he thinks is profound or clever. While doing this fifth technique he is pulling a face which I think is meant to be a kooool California smile or perhaps a Bush-lite smirk.

The sermon is about the who, what, how of propagating Knowledge. Examples:

''Should everybody have Knowledge?'' He asks and puts his tongue in his cheek.

Then he looks at audience mischievously smirks and says: ''I see some of you nodding and others shaking their heads.''

He then does not answer the question (as he never does answer any questions) but non-sequiturs into another topic.

He blames the mahatmas for introducing Hinduism and says that it is not fair to blame him for this as some people do because he has said from the beginning that it is not a religion. He speaks as if the audience knows of the criticisms being levelled at him. The audience is after all quite exclusive, mostly rich Pewks and industrial strength church ladies.

He tells them that the most dangerous time to talk about Knowledge is when they are ''feeling that fuzzy feeling, you know the warm fuzzy feeling.'' He then says that it is dangerous because they will introduce concepts about who Maharaji is and that they should have NO concepts about the Master neither about what he is or isn't. And that they do not have to exaggerate his accomplishments or importance even if they are tempted too.

With his last pronouncement he puffs himself up and grins as the audience applauds. All those self-conscious flirtatious attention-getting tactics used to work when he was a chubby pretty little boy but he is now a dumpy, jowly, pompous old fool. The whole act comes off as a spin-control to the share-holders. These Pewks are after all the financial back-bone of the industry in the west. He looks like a huckster trying to impress pyramid scheme suckers that their ''investment'' will pay off big eventually.

Every five minutes or so he walks over to the desk and pushes just one key on the laptop then turns and swivels the pen in the air and says things like: ''Somewhere in Canada there is one guy who has shown the most impressive figures so far. I mean he is bringing more people to Maharaji than anybody else. How does he do it? Well, let me show you.''

He goes to the drawing board. It already has a wobbly circle drawn on it. He draw a small wedge in the circle with his felt-tip pen and says, ''This is how small a part actual propagation, introducing someone to Knowledge for the first time, is. The rest is keeping them there.''

He then wipes the small wedge out and turns to the audience with a flourish. They applaud and he grins from ear to ear having just demonstrated what a wonderful CEO he really is in that he was able to draw a wedge inside a pre-drawn circle and then erase it.

''So how does this guy do it?'' he asks; ''What is he doing right that make his figures the most impressive? Well, apparently this guy has studied every video in the local library and knows them all so well that he knows just exactly the right video to give to the right person to introduce them to Maharaji. That is the way to propagate Knowledge.''

Enough already. I have simply written what I saw not what I was thinking when I saw it. Let it speak for itself. He is truly an embarassment to civilized, intelligent people. It is hard to believe that people like John Horton were in the audience. Well, actually maybe not. I've known plenty of other dumb doctors in my 30 years in that business.

When it is over you come away not having learned anything. He has not answered any specific questions. He has told them that everybody should have Knowledge but that not everybody will be interested. He has said that they should tell people about Knowledge but that they should not talk about it. He has basically again said nothing as usual - hot air.

But the Pewks got the vibe I guess and that got them high and they felt so inspired and then they just wanted to tell everybody the good news when they got home but of course no one really wanted to here about a greedy selfish guru and they couldn't talk about it anyway so it's back to straightening out white table cloths at the video event held every week for the one aspirant who does not always show up.

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 11:48:16 (EST)
From: Chris
Email: None
To: PatC
Subject: Tidbits on blind idolization...
Message:

To PatC, Cynthia and all. Thanks for your observations - these were some of my reactions as well upon watching that DVD.

Aside from showing MJ's true colors as an arrogant ignoramus, I was also amazed at how many other pwk's watching it with me during the KIT actually thought it was great! One guy had even seen it earlier in another city and actually recommended that it be brought to our community with the KIT, saying it's very positive and inspiring!

At the KIT the Atlanta DVD was shown to us in 30-minute segments. After the first day's segment, the group exercises and the simulator interview, I decided I had some more important things cooking at home and excused myself at the break. The instructor's response was, ‘no problem; I hope you can come back for the remaining segment tomorrow - you don't want to miss that part - it's even better!' (I did go back, more out of the fact I had invested $150 than really wanting to go; but of course, I left again at the break the next day as well!)

But this brings me to some of my observations on personality idolization which I find really curiously amazing. How can anyone (no matter how much unquestioning blind love for MJ they still have) not see through his ridiculous arrogance by now!? (or if so, are willing to tolerate it as an acceptable level). It's quite scary.

Also I witnessed that same kind of crowd-swaying in Amaroo. In one talk, MJ was in his tiringly-joking way mocking the sound connection to his mike as ‘Aussie inefficiency', after which I couldn't believe the ‘boos' from the crowd (and I don't think they were in support of the Aussies). The 20–something girl sitting next to me gasped that premies can be so insensitive and started crying for a good 10 minutes. I started to feel tears myself - I've seen enough of insensitivity, too. But in another talk later, MJ, followed by the crowd's claps and cheers, did say he wanted to hand it to the Aussies for all their effort in putting this together. Talk about swaying a crowd by its tail.

It's scary actually - personality idolization can turn a crowd into blind sheep stampeding over a cliff behind its leader. Makes one wonder how far MJ would go before HE starts to notice that his own behaviour is inappropriate......

Chris

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 14:22:43 (EST)
From: PatC
Email: None
To: Chris
Subject: Re: Tidbits on blind idolization...
Message:

Chris, in Rawat's mind, there is nothing wrong with what he is doing.

You said: ''It's scary actually - personality idolization can turn a crowd into blind sheep stampeding over a cliff behind its leader. Makes one wonder how far MJ would go before HE starts to notice that his own behaviour is inappropriate......''

Nothing that he can do is inapproriate. He is a Hindu and that religion is all about bliss not morals. He is a bhakti-guru which is all about love not goodness.

As Michael Donner said above: ''it is not surprising that the aging group of followers (certainly generally speaking) want most to just be with him..just of touch his feet and sing his praises. all the rest is either cover and public projection to give those followers some way to justify to their own psycics that that is not what it is about really..not completely. especially for the western premies who need to feel like they are doing some good in the world. and that by following m, they are helping him spread this good news to a world that needs it. in india, etc. there is no pretense like this...just pure bakti yoga..master and devotee.''

It just took some of us longer than others to see that it is purely and simply all about worshipping Rawat no matter how evil he is not about doing good or loving mankind.

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 01:55:17 (EST)
From: Tonette
Email: None
To: PatC
Subject: I wonder.
Message:

Every five minutes or so he walks over to the desk and pushes just one key on the laptop
then turns and swivels the pen in the air and says things like: ''Somewhere in Canada there is
one guy who has shown the most impressive figures so far. I mean he is bringing more people
to Maharaji than anybody else. How does he do it? Well, let me show you.''

I don't think it is too far fetched for Maharaji really to mean at this point in his presentation, 'There is some guy in Canada, ie, Jim Heller, who has brought more people away from Knowledge than anyone else. How does he do it? Let me look again at my computer screen. Yep, the damn forum and EPO is still there.'

It would not surprise me at all for M to have twisted what is and was really happening, Canada and Jim to help him provide filler for his presentation. I guess we will never know, and it is not important, but it does make me wonder.

Fondly, Tonette

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 18:16:58 (EST)
From: Deborah
Email: None
To: Tonette
Subject: Yes, I thought the same thing
Message:

Exactly! shit that's so darn funny. I thought he was turning the Heller thing around as a reverse statistics.

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Date: Sat, Jan 12, 2002 at 09:54:56 (EST)
From: Tonette
Email: None
To: Deborah
Subject: Great minds think alike, eh Deborah? nt
Message:

****xxx

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 04:15:45 (EST)
From: PatC
Email: None
To: Tonette
Subject: ROFLMAO, Tonette. [nt]
Message:

[nt]

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 18:38:11 (EST)
From: Deborah
Email: None
To: PatC
Subject: Unbelievable!
Message:

Pat,

How can I see it? Is it possible to get a copy of that to Victoria? Maybe Jim and Laurie want to see it too. I'll ask him.

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 19:10:56 (EST)
From: PatC
Email: None
To: Deborah
Subject: if you and Jim want to see it...
Message:

....I'll mail my copy to Jim.

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 20:59:06 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: PatC
Subject: Yes, thanks, Pat
Message:

Pat,

That'd be fun. Please do.

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 04:16:40 (EST)
From: PatC
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: Will do, Jim. [nt]
Message:

[nt]

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 18:54:17 (EST)
From: Zelda
Email: None
To: Deborah
Subject: Simultaneous Video E
Message:

[nt]

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 22:32:46 (EST)
From: Cynthia
Email: None
To: Zelda
Subject: Disculta, I have to say...
Message:

with all jokes, aside, and having seen your photo, you would look beautiful in a sari! :)

You are so much more beautiful inside and out, than Durga Ji could ever imagine to be.

Have fun you guys!
Love,
Cynthia, the lonely northeast ex-premie with no exes to play with

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 16:25:21 (EST)
From: Joe
Email: None
To: PatC
Subject: Yes, so strange
Message:

He tells them that the most dangerous time to talk about Knowledge is when they are ''feeling that fuzzy feeling, you know the warm fuzzy feeling.'' He then says that it is dangerous because they will introduce concepts about who Maharaji is and that they should have NO concepts about the Master neither about what he is or isn't. And that they do not have to exaggerate his accomplishments or importance even if they are tempted too.

Yes, this is the part where he scares the shit out of them that they might say the wrong thing. He said it was like playing 'Russian Roulette' and they all have 'loaded guns' and it's extremely dangerous (I guess for Maharaji), but he never actually says what it is they are not supposed to say.

Right, the PWK is not supposed to embellish Maharaji, but then M says that they likely are understating who he is, and he also says the Master owns everything related to Knowledge.

The whole thing is so demeaning. It's like the premies are not entitled to have their own opinions and express things in ways they see fit. They have to always be concerned that they are 'thinking' and involved with the area of 'the mind' (yes, he still says that).

His bizarre idea that if you just 'select the right video' for someone to see that will do the trick, and the example of whoever that guy was with great record of bringing people to knowledge by memorizing all the videos in the 'library' was just too weird, like premies are really going to memorize the videos. Plus, Maharaji just says the same stuff over and over anyway, just with new, cute anecdotes and examples.

The purpose of listening to videos is not to learn anything, it's just to get so numbed out that you no longer have questions. It doesn't really matter what he actually says.

Plus, I'm sure those Pwks walked out of there feeling privileged they got to be with M, spending how many hundreds of dollars he charged them for the privilege, but having not a clue what it was he actually wanted them to do.

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 16:48:12 (EST)
From: bill
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: Re: Yes, so strange
Message:

Hi Joe, you said;
The 'training' was in a hotel banquet room in an Atlanta hotel in July 2000. Maharaji stands on a dias at the front, and the premies are set way, way back from him, up against the walls of the ballroom, which is kind of strange. Maharaji waddles around on the dias making 'points.'

Wonder why he set them so 'way, way back from him' ?
So he couldnt really see thier wierded out eyes?
He does wear glasses, so maybe he prefers a blur to seeing
up close the strange eyes in his audience as they try to be supportive of his sentences.

Was this video sent around to the general premie world?
Is there a way to take out the photo of him giving the toilet motion
and we can put his comment underneath.
Pat C's post about the meeting is really blistering and funny.
Thanks for your posts and do comment further about the video.

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 16:44:43 (EST)
From: PatC
Email: None
To: Joe
Subject: Rawat knows propagation is dead in west
Message:

That video convinced me that he is cynical enough that he is pushing the KITs 1) to make money from the PWKs and 2) to convince them that he is still interested in propagation which he is not. He is stringing them along.

Maybe he really does not see that he is the cockroach in the cornflakes as Anth said.

Mostly it seems to be about ''Pwks walked out of there feeling privileged they got to be with M'' as you said - and the dollars of course.

PS There really are quite a few PWKs who remember every video ever made.

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 17:52:19 (EST)
From: Cynthia
Email: None
To: PatC
Subject: Re: Rawat knows propagation is dead in west
Message:

The obstacle has always been Maharaji himself. First he's the LOTU, then he's not (wink, wink), except when he wants to be, such as Amaroo events. He alters his name, has the big book burnings, and puts gags on the premies, because only he as Master, can speak about the 'Knowledge' which he owns exclusively. He's not a master of anything but total confusion and disorganization. He is a pathological liar.

My discussion with Joe in a thread below about the Deca project reminded me of how much of an obstacle he has always been. If something doesn't go his way (or his idea of what he wants) heads roll. He becomes abusive verbally, demanding, nasty, and demeaning which reinforces the cult indoctrination. Yet, it's always been his big ass and small brain that's been in the way. Premies, as I remember, have always wanted to please him. What a freak. What do the premies do? They swallow it. What happens when you swallow that shit? You become incompetent as a functioning human being.

The essence of his cult is the worship of him and the belief of his infallibility. Maharaji's World. How can he back-peddle now? Renouncing everything he ever said up to the gag-order era, criticizing everything that doesn't go his way like a two year old, blaming everyone else for his problems: he wants, he wants, he wants. Life doesn't work that way.

I'd like to know, besides his desire for more money, what exactly he is doing, or trying to do. His treatment of premies has never been kind unless he's been on a stage in the act (and even then there have been times when he's been very cruel). The indoctrination of premies from the 70s to believe he is GOD, instilling the fear of leaving, but saying ''the door swings both ways'' (the double bind), talking as if he actually knows something about human compassion, which he doesn't, his accumulation of obscene wealth at the cost of premie marriages, homes, the loss of prime years for the ashram premies, the abuse of their children by pedophiles (while protecting the monsters in a cover up), the loss of precious time in our early lives by wasting it on him and his stupid goals, are but a few examples of how he has been the main obstacle. Then he comes up with a new ''phase'' for propagation, over and over again. It's ludicrous.

If he were truly a master, he would teach and not demand. He's no teacher, much less a master of anything. It is very telling that the premies were in the back of the room in that KIT. His body language (which I've seen before, but not in this particular video) is such that he initiates cues: the tongue in cheek, raising and lowering his voice, speaking words that make no sense while telling premies only HE knows what to do and how to do it and telling them that his 'way is the only way.'

I believe that a lot of premies remember every video ever made. For those premies, the truest believers, I feel empathy. I was there once. But there's a way out. So there's not real excuse for them, especially the PAMs.

That's why I laugh when catweasal or other premies appear here and tell us that we don't know what we're talking about. Or that we never understood, or never put in enough ''effort.'' We most certainly do know what we're talking about.

Most of us were there during the heaviest devotional period of the cult, bowing down, trying to surrender, giving as fully as we knew how, only to be scorned by Maharaji as if we were nothing but rabbits to be shot at his whim. Disposable devotees.

Propagation is dead all right. Dead and gone. It's only about rawat covering his ass, intimidating the remaining true believers into giving more and more until they can't take it anymore. Is this a human being?

All his efforts to gag us here has failed. He has to know that. If he doesn't, then he really is stupid.

Well, Maharaji, we grew up. Now it's time for you to get a job and grow up too.

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 15:44:37 (EST)
From: PatC
Email: None
To: PatC
Subject: PS Kelly did a transcript of it
Message:

I can't find it in the forum archives. Perhaps someone can remember what date. Oh, Kelly?

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 19:32:43 (EST)
From: bill
Email: None
To: PatC
Subject: Transcript is in post just below. [nt]
Message:

[nt]

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 19:15:08 (EST)
From: Pat W
Email: None
To: PatC
Subject: Re: PS Kelly did a transcript of it
Message:

From archives:

From Kelly

Here are some extracts from a recent satellite broadcast. An amalgamation of two ÒtrainingsÓ, Atlanta and Amaroo, plus some other clips. These particular extracts are from the Atlanta training in July 2000 called ÒIntroducing the possibility of knowledgeÓ This was the next to last ÒdripÓ for me. I was watching a video recording of it, on my own, in my house, and I just hated it so much, I was screaming at the screenÉ.some of it unrepeatable!! but ÉÓ THATÕS IT, IÕM OUTA HEREÓ
Anyway, I thought you might like to hear some of it, so I transcribed thisÉ.
On screen heading, ÒThe FundamentalsÓ

The following extract is a straight, uncut sequence.

MaharajiÉ

ÒKnowledge, and all things associated with it, are compliments of the Master. The Master doesnÕt want knowledge sessions to happen, Guess what? TheyÕre not happening. The Master changes the rules, creates the rules, disposes of these rules, as the Master wishes.
The possibility of knowledge is brought to you by the compliments of your friendly Master. (laughter and applause)

Now, IÕm not getting into the logistics of it OK? I understand it is the people who are interested make many of these things a physical reality. But, the key frame here is, compliments..the Master says, yes this is OK to do, you may talk about knowledge, you may not talk about knowledge. Both have to be taken with the same stride. If youÕre borrowing your neighbourÕs car, the neighbour says yes you may drive it, then one day he may say ..No you may not drive it, I want my car back.

You have to realizeÉ.Ownership of knowledge resides with the MasterÉHearing about knowledge is a privilegeÉ.Being able to talk about knowledge is a privilege, itÕs not a right, itÕs a privilege. ÉReceiving knowledge is a privilegeÉBeing able to practice knowledge is a privilegeÉ..Being able to participate is a privilege.Ó (Audience of invited guests nodding and smiling)

Another extract entitled ÒA little HistoryÓ

MaharajiÉ.

Ó When a lot of the Mahatmas came to the West, they brought with them immeasurable amount of concepts, and it kinda went wild, and there was no stopping it. The backlash of that, I had to directly bear. Because people would ask me point blank these questionsÉÓAre you this? Are you that, you know, What is this? What is that? Ò
(IÕve missed a bit here)
ÒSo, thatÕs the good news, the bad news is that the concepts have really gotten us in a hole to this day, where weÕre still having to defend ourselves, which I find pathetic (he spits this out) having to defend ourselves and say.. No.. these things are not true. So we cannot afford to perpetuate any concepts.
Knowledge worksÉlook, you know, lets face it, knowledge works. The Master, when given the right environment, does his thing, and itÕs great. It all works.

Whatever we forge for the future, we have to remember.. where.. we.. came from, and we have to remember, most importantly, how incredibly dangerous, incredibly dangerous, this stuff isÉ.. Shooting your mouth off is not innocent by any stretch of the imaginationÉ.What you say in yourÉfuzzy feelingÉyou know what I meanÉfuzzy feeling? When youÕre feeling nice and oooh sooo inspired, can be deadly dangerous. What you say cannot have any tolerance for mistakesÉ..

What do you think?É.Does this far of the history make any sense? And why IÕm bringing this up? Because I see you in the same shoes. ThereÕs a lot more of you than there were of themÉ..Comprende?É..Just playing Russian roulette with a lot more guns. Your chances go up. I donÕt want to be in those shoes. I donÕt think these mistakes have to happen and I donÕt think these mistakes need to be thereÓ

I expect you can imagine the way all this was delivered, in that pompous, petulant, arrogant way he speaks, with frequent long pregnant pauses and raised eyebrows. So supercilious, so condescending, so insulting to the audience who are all people who have given up their lives to help him. Oh yes, I forgot, itÕs a privilege!!! Anyway I could comment on this forever, but IÕd be very interested in your comments.

Kelly

Response from Pat W about these Maharaji extracts .

Knowledge, and all things associated with it, are compliments of the Master

Dictionary says: Compliments =Ó An expression of formal respect, civility. A presentÓ.
Thus M says, Knowledge, and all things associated with it, are a given by him (to aspirants and premies) civilly and respectfully. As he goes on it becomes harder to see exactly where the civility and respect part comes in.

ÒThe Master doesnÕt want knowledge sessions to happen, Guess what? TheyÕre not happening.Ó

He is the one controlling the giving out of Knowledge and he can stop doing that whenever he likes. There is a veiled threat that he may withold giving Knowledge if anything (such as actions by the premies listening) give him cause to do so. If Knowledge sessions stop of course thatÕs bad. Thus he engenders fear in the audience who are acutely anxious that it not be their actions or mistakes which lead to him making this clearly dreadful decision.

ÒThe Master changes the rules, creates the rules, disposes of these rules, as the Master wishes.Ó

He can do as he likes and his pupils live in an uncertain world. This is clearly not a ÔmasterÕ in the healthy sense of the word. It is well known that growing children (which could be said to analogous of pupils of a master) need an environment where their limits are well defined. A household where the father is always domineeringly changing the rules undermines the confidence and security of the children.

The possibility of knowledge is brought to you by the compliments of your friendly Master. (laughter and applause)

Tries to soften the unfriendly implications of his speech by suggesting that he is being friendly.

Now, IÕm not getting into the logistics of it OK? I understand it is the people who are interested who make many of these things a physical reality. But, the key frame here is, compliments.

Belittles the fact that it is hugely thanks to the tireless and dedicated work of followers that he is able to do any of this. He wants to disempower them in the equation completely and empower himself above all.

ÒThe Master says, yes this is OK to do, you may talk about knowledge, you may not talk about knowledge. Both have to be taken with the same stride. If youÕre borrowing your neighbourÕs car, the neighbour says yes you may drive it, then one day he may say ..No you may not drive it, I want my car back.Ó

It is NOT your right to talk about Knowledge. That is what without any shadow of doubt he is saying here. This is very disturbing as it implies that he wants to control what people say about their own inner experience. Are we to suppose also that this Knowledge, which is within inside us is borrowed ? that our life itself Ð our very existence is borrowed ?? from him?

What kind of a gift is it that someone gives you that you have no right to talk about???

It is a gift with the condition that you follow rules which change at his whim and you must not talk about if he tells you not to. Of course the Knowledge techniques are the prime secret that you are beholden to him to keep. The right to talk about it is stressed as being a privilege that may be removed at a moments notice.

ÒYou have to realizeÉ.Ownership of knowledge resides with the MasterÉHearing about knowledge is a privilegeÉ.Being able to talk about knowledge is a privilege, itÕs not a right, itÕs a privilege.ÉReceiving knowledge is a privilegeÉBeing able to practice knowledge is a privilegeÉ..Being able to participate is a privilege.Ó (Audience of invited guests nodding and smiling)

He owns your experience. Great. You are beholden to him. The experience of your own Life Force is NOT YOUR RIGHT.
It is not a human beingÕs birthright to know their God, but a privilege that is LENT to him , without any assurance that he can even speak about it, by this incontrovertibly imperfect man , who clearly claims that he is the Perfect Master.

Another extract entitled ÒA little HistoryÓ

Perhaps ÒA little revisionismÓ would have been more apt.

Ò When a lot of the Mahatmas came to the West, they brought with them immeasurable amount of concepts, and it kinda went wild, and there was no stopping it.Ó

Yes, and he tried SO HARD to stop it didnÕt he?

The backlash of that, I had to directly bear.

Poor Maharaji had to suffer because all the mahatmas misrepresented him and Knowledge. All by himself -I think he may be trying to illicit a little sympathy here. Premies will give him heaps. ÒHow could we have allowed him to be so put out?Ó Time to get the flagellatory whips out.

IÕm sorry, but this line of blaming the Indian Mahatmas is grossly unfair. You only have to read MaharajiÕs fatherÕs satsang speeches and you can see where all the Indian concepts came from. Also it would not be hard to prove, by dredging up MaharajiÕs own early speeches, that he brought 99% of those Ôimmeasurable conceptsÓ to the West himself. He whose every word all premieÕs took as gospel . He who clearly said that we should dedicate our lives to him in the Ashram Ðbe celibate (rule one) Ðbe vegetarian (rule 2) Ð etc. etc.
Anyway, so these immeasurable conceptsÉ What is he talking about exactly? Ð and tell me someone please Ð what did the poor old Mahatmas tell us that was so frightful ÐMine just told me to meditate exactly as Maharaji himself prescribed and to do everything else Maharaji demanded himself endlessly. Nothing more that I recall.
So MaharajiÕs revisionism fails to impress me a jot. In fact I am appalled at his lack of taking any responsibility for what he actually demanded from us back then.

ÒBecause people would ask me point blank these questionsÉÓ Are you this? Are you that, you know, What is this? What is thatÓ

He must be referring to the recurrentÒDo you say youÕre God? YouÕre followers say you areÓ question.
Well, clearly one can see that the ÔMasterÕ whom he describes is unmistably ÔGod-likeÓ given his extraordinary powers and claimed authority. Next heÕll be saying ÒI never said IÕm a MasterÓ and accusing premies of misrepresenting him!

ÒÉ the bad news is that the concepts have really gotten us in a hole to this day, where weÕre still having to defend ourselves, which I find pathetic (he spits this out) having to defend ourselves and say.. No these things are not true. So we cannot afford to perpetuate any concepts.Ó

Well. HeÕs hardly helping his defence by spitting out the sort of thing that he has apparently said - if these little extracts are anything to go by.
I think he really badly needs to go a lot further than just saying ÒNo, these things are not trueÓ. OK, so he finds it pathetic to have to be answerable to criticism (which does not reasonably amount to attack - letÕs be clear about this) . But he needs to go further and prove that these things are not true...not just simply claim ÒtheyÕre not true!Ó

Also, if he finds himself Òin a holeÓ and feels Ôunder attackÕ merely because some of his past, undoubtedly sincere, followers want some straight answers then what is so ÔpatheticÕ about showing them a little deserved empathy and apologising to them for subjecting them to so many unreasonable ÔhinduisticÕ demands?

ÒKnowledge worksÉlook, you know, lets face it, knowledge works. The Master, when given the right environment, does his thing, and itÕs great. It all works.Ó

Yes, and my experience of late is that the meditation part works well without the Master bit. Sure the devotion and surrender stuff works well in the right environment. A closed environment where itÕs easy to brainwash people.

Whatever we forge for the future, we have to remember.. where.. we.. came from, and we have to remember, most importantly, how incredibly dangerous, incredibly dangerous, this stuff isÉ.. Shooting your mouth off is not innocent by any stretch of the imaginationÉ.

UhohÉheÕs sounding cross now. ItÕs the Mafioso Boss warning his hoods not to squeal. WeÕre definitely talking in terms of someone who feels that they are in a Ôwar of opposing sidesÕ hereÉ
Remember the World War Two slogan , urging the populace of the dangers of idle chat because HitlerÕs spies were rife ÐÒCareless talk costs livesÓ
I believe that in Germany at this time the warning had a more threatening tone in that if you were judged responsible for such indiscretions you could be shot or hung.

Maharaji says that if you betray him in any way youÕre Ò not innocentÓ ie YOUÓRE GUILTY. He leaves it to the poor intimidated premie to imagine what might be the punishment for this crime.

ÒWhat you say in yourÉfuzzy feelingÉyou know what I meanÉfuzzy feeling? When youÕre feeling nice and oooh sooo inspired, can be deadly dangerous. What you say cannot have any tolerance for mistakesÉ..

Deadly dangerous??!! No tolerance for mistakes? Not even a weeny bit?
I think he waxing a bit melodramatic here. How many blissed out premies, that you have met, have said something Òdeadly dangerousÕ ?? Deadly boring maybe, but life threateningly dangerous Ðhardly. What does he want-people to be so worried about saying what they feel that all they are permitted to do is spout some safe party line?

ÒWhat do you think? .Does this far of the history make any sense?Ó

Excuse me, did I hear correctly? did you ask me for my opinion??

I suppose, at this point in the proceedings, a dozen hands shot up and people had the chance to respond to this rare opportunity to answer Maharaji Ð

ÒNo, it doesnÕt make sense O Master. Actually I was rather wondering if you could explain a little problem I have aboutÉÓ

Of course not. This is not a real question. One that you are allowed to actually answer. You are merely supposed to nod assentingly and silently Ð indeed like so many sheep.

ÒAnd why IÕm bringing this up? Because I see you in the same shoes. ThereÕs a lot more of you than there were of themÉ..Comprende?É.. Just playing Russian roulette with a lot more guns. Your chances go up. I donÕt want to be in those shoes. I donÕt think these mistakes have to happen and I donÕt think these mistakes need to be thereÓ

It sounds to me like heÕs bringing this up because heÕs afraid that premies will again put him in the situation where he will have to ÔdefendÕ himself. Against what? Some simple questions? The situation where he may be called upon to answer some simple straightforward questions seems to fill him with dread. This suggests that he has no answers.

So all the premies are very likely going to screw things up royally for Maharaji given half the chance. He clearly doesnÕt want people to talk about Knowledge or at least he is extremely paranoid that people are going to fatally misrepresent him and Knowledge. This is neither respecful or civil. Why? Because it suggests that those people who have Knowledge are so stupid that they cannot possibly say anything sensible about it. (even though they have supposedly experienced it). Worse, they are more likely to be so off-base that they will cause some ÔdeadlyÕ repercussions.

Maharaji is counting on people giving him the benefit of the doubt and that they will see this ÔwarningÕ as a demonstration of how ÔseriouslyÕ he takes his job as Master and how he is reproving all his flippant, loose tongued followers who are jeopardising his work and how kind he is to let them play even a tiny little part in his work. No matter how you read it, this is a warning to keep the secrets.

IÕm probably too generous in my analysis of MaharajiÕs words. HereÕs what my dear innocent non- premie wife said when I read her the extracts.

ÒMegalomaniac! Who does he think he is? HeÕs got this thing called Knowledge. Once youÕve given something to someone, you canÕt rule their lives and tell them what to do with it and who they can talk to about it! He wants to control people. He feels threatened and scared.Ó

MaharajiÉ.

ÒLet me put it very simply. Are you, in your own self, content with not having to define Maharaji? Maharaji is Maharaji. So how comfortable are you with not having to define Maharaji? ThatÕs the real question, are you comfortable with that? Because if youÕre not, youÕre gonna sit half way, half baked, between the belief system and what Knowledge needs. Until that happens, the history can never really be cleared up, because it still lives in that era. The shade of darkness still loomsÓ

I think this is more obfuscating on M's part. Firstly he suggests that one should not define Maharaji. The alternate to one having clear understanding, definition of Maharaji's role in one's mind, would seem to be to have a 'belief' that he is beyond such definition. A 'belief' is the appropriate word I think.
Then he tries to suggest that Knowledge doen't need a 'belief system', so we're back to having an understanding of him, which surely needs some sort of definition. The 'darkness looming' bit is not clearly explained, so as a warning of dire consequences, it would seem to have been said mainly to have effect through intimidation.

ÒMaharaji is MaharajiÓ

Again he is simply stressing that he can do whatever he likes - he is beyong the limiting definitions that the world puts on him. Hence he can behave as he wishes, demand that his followers accept whatever conditions he wishes and is basically is beyond normal judgement.

As we know this is meglamaniacal talk, so either he is God or he is a megalomanic. I think we tend to think that his lack of kindness and partiality to intimidation amongst many other things, suggest that he is the latter.

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 19:25:18 (EST)
From: PatC
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To: Pat W
Subject: Oy vey! Thanks Pat W.
Message:

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 15:36:54 (EST)
From: Brian Smith
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To: Joe
Subject: Wow, What a piece of work
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Thanks for that Joe, It felt as if I had watched much of the video via your deft description of it all.

Just another adroit example of how the boss shoots himself in the lotus feet time and time again.

Amongst this confusion and convolution he apparently understands one thing though, he senses that is he is going down the drain. He just doesn't see that it is his fault.

Rock on maharaji

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 15:13:57 (EST)
From: Jim
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To: Joe
Subject: Makes a mockery of Roupell, no?
Message:

He does, however, consider it pathetic that 'we' are, to this day, having to defend against those things, and show that they are not true. (Obvious reference to EPO and ex-premies reminding the world of M's past, but unclear how he has ever demonstrated lack of accuracy), which, he reiterates, was all due to the Mahatmas and the premies who were just 'wild' in the way they talked about him, back then. This, he says, has put him into a 'deep hole' and he has never recovered from. He seems completely oblivious to how 'coming clean' and being honest might help him in that regard. Instead, he blames the Mahatmas and the premies.

(my emphasis)

Funny how people like Roupell gloat that EPO's never fazed Maharaji. What a joke, huh?

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Date: Thurs, Jan 10, 2002 at 11:29:15 (EST)
From: Joe
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To: Jim
Subject: True/Maharaji's Dilemma and the poor premies
Message:

Maharaji specifically said that if things don't change, he can pretty much forget propagation. And yet, it's clear he had no idea how to change anything. He kept talking about the 'new' way to propagate knowledge. Other than his use of the word 'possibility' which he repeated so many times, he must think the premies are brain-dead, there isn't anything there.

Then, he said, that not only did the premie have to tell the person about the 'possibility' of knowledge, being so deadly careful not to say the wrong thing, they also had to see that the person saw the right videos, received knowledge, and 'enjoyed' knowledge for the rest of their lives.

He puts all this responsbility on the premies, and at the same time, gives them ZERO credit for doing anything themselves, because it's ALL due to the 'Master,' scaring the shit out of them for possibily doing things wrong, blaming them (and the Mahatmas) for how screwed up things were in the past resulting in the current pathetic problems he has, and on and on. I wondered how ANYONE walking out of that room, would have any self-confidence to do ANYTHING in regard to propagation.

And of course, the result is, premies don't tell anybody about knowledge, because they haven't a clue how to, especially because they have no idea how to explain Maharaji.

Somebody, probably Valerio Pascotto, has convinced M that the way to get things going is by these strange 'trainings' and I think he has probably already abandoned them, as this was a year ago. We shall see what the 'next' NEW thing for propagation will be, and how long he can con the premies into thinking he actually knows what the hell he's doing.

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Date: Wed, Jan 09, 2002 at 19:28:37 (EST)
From: jonathan
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To: Jim
Subject: Re: Makes a mockery of Roupell, no?
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If it weren't for EPO, I think I would be one of dazed and confused village idiots.

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